Walk On The Beach

Blow out the candles and turn off the lights.

Try to let the memories die this time,

No reason left to fight.

Take one last walk on the beach.

Retracing footsteps of the past,

Pondering failed attempts at peace.

Hear the whispers calling on the wind.

Stories echo hollow in my chest,

Laments the death of a once dear friend.

The things I was so thankful for,

Tenets of a forgotten faith.

Lost to the tides forevermore.

Darkness holds a cold embrace.

Though I tried as I thought best,

The fate I have made cannot be escaped.

The totality of choices left drifting on the sea.

Pay the ferryman his coin,

I was always just a memory.

You’ve Got Red On You

All the pretentious accolades,

Of your falsified reality.

Bought into the chaos,

And the lies that you told me.

Cut my eyes out,

Forced myself to never see.

Sat on your throne,

Watched a soul slowly bleed.

Flames smothered in silence,

Relive the past as something new.

Never questioned the poison,

Played my part right on cue.

Broken reflections,

Kept doing what you do.

Can’t escape who you are,

You’ve got red on you.

Background

Fade into the background,

Like mist in the night.

Take my place in silence,

Though I know it’s not right.

Only seen when things fall into place.

Accessory to the well spun lie.

Time takes years away,

Each day a little more of me dies.

No Tomorrow

What if there is no tomorrow,

No someday on the horizon?

Can you feel alive again,

Even if there is no time left to borrow?

If you could live like you’re dying,

What would that be like?

Lay down in the same ditch as before,

Or stand up and go out trying?

Nothing is ever a guarantee,

No promises of another day.

Take the chance and see what happens,

Believe and see what might be.

Devil On My Shoulder

I’m done with perceived sins,

Devil on my shoulder’s my only friend.

The only one left, who stuck around.

Not all who wander want to be found.

Patience was the name of the game.

Till I understood it would just be more of the same.

Playing by my own rules now.

Nothing will ever again, chain me down.

Life’s a dirty looking glass.

Can’t tell the reflection staring back.

Keep putting one foot in front of another.

Trust broken , you don’t need to bother.

Pick myself up once again,

Tonight a new story will begin.

I won’t be lost in the river of time.

Reclaim myself and all that’s mine.

Fading Away

Maybe it’s time to fade away.

Let go of all the sorrow and pain.

Drift into long wanted slumber,

No reason left to stay.

Release all the weight I’ve been under.

No nerves left to fray,

Nothing more to endlessly ponder.

Through the stars to eternally wander.

After Knowing

After knowing what I now know

After all the promises of feelings and gold

After the ease with flames turned cold

After affection was simple to withhold 

After all this, it should be easier to let go.

Dance in the Light

Those that cannot embrace your darkness;

Don’t deserve to feel your light.

If You Want

If you want to feel,

Just how deep love can be.

Come take my hand,

Sit in my darkness with me.

Wasteland Within

Looking out the window .

Stare at the wasteland within.

Hear the thunder in the distance:

Feel the winds of change blowing again.

Strangers sharing time and space.

Too done to let the other in.

Chasm where two hearts once lived.

Etched in blood, shedding dead skin.

Too tired to fight anymore,

Easier to turn blind eye and stay.

Keep it all locked behind walls.

Fate far worse than any grave.

Charred remains of another life.

Finding myself in the dark,

Loosing what has been outgrown.

Let the ending go so the beginning can start.

Here For Now

I’m here for now,

But won’t always be.

Time turns the wheel,

Outpacing destiny.

Turning into dust,

Scattered through eternity.

Alone

Alone isn’t lonely

It’s just knowing we’re apart

Days spent in absence 

Slowly breaking my heart

Unknown in the solitude 

As the seasons change again

Failing to find a reason

Memories of the past, my only friend

Hold onto hope for one more day

Wrapped in winters frigid spell

 Wishing time would move a little faster

Get us out of this frozen helL

Warm ourselves with love and laughter

Thats present when we’re together

Being away might not break the world

But by your side is so much better.

Dancing in Dreams

Dancing in dreams again.

Not knowing where reality begins.

Cradling hearts till the music ends.

Eternal symphony for lovers, and friends.

Waiting For The End

Been waiting for the end to begin,

While learning to trust me again.

For so long I have been completely numb,

Longing to simply be done.

You have taken so much of my life,

To the point, I didn’t want to survive.

My fault was believing you would change,

So I only have myself to blame.

Though I never deserved to be treated this way,

It was always my choice to stay.

Somewhere deep inside I still have faith,

That myself I will save.

I can see behind your fragile mask,

Nothing more of you I will ask.

Over the years I learned, I grew.

The answer this time, it’s me I choose.

Martyr

Trying to martyr yourself

On the lies that you've bought 

Found buried in the ashes 

Of the destruction you've wrought 

Think you look untarnished 

Living in the facade you display

Knowing deep in your soul

The reality you can't bring yourself to say

A lifetime of following 

Someone else's version of a dream

One day it may be  too late

In yourself, to finally believe

Dancing

Demons dancing in my dreams tonight.

Forbears of tortuous delights.

Teasing with promises I can’t describe.

Finding me where I believed I could hide. 

Witches gather around the flame.

Each one different but all the same.

Weaving their spell to seal my fate.

Heart lost in the depths of hate.

Hearing on the wind, a banshees call.

Succumbing to darkness, willingly fall.

Replaying each night inside my head.

Soullessly existing, living dead.

Samhain

The veil thins once again

Time when believed fallacy

Becomes our reality

Hold close, the dark embrace

Faith fails, and hearts race

Drink deep from the vein

Blurred lines of pleasure and pain

New deities bow to the gods of old

Ancient slumber ends, the stories told

Make way for the spirits of Samhain

Time

Time is a funny thing.

We always want more of it,

Yet never pay attention to where it goes.

Until something happens,

Then it’s more, we want our prays to bring.

The aftermath brings a renewed vow.

Stop taking each moment as if it will last.

Share that which we keep hidden in our hearts.

Then the comfortable complacency returns,

And we pronounce, the time isn’t right now.

Tomorrow will be when change begins.

We always have that, right?

Have just a little more to ponder.

Afraid to fail we simply justify inaction.

What if though, today is the end.

Tell Yourself

Go ahead, tell yourself another white lie.

Believing even in the tears you cry.

Find every reason you can never try.

All is good enough, everything is fine.

When the time comes, and chances run out.

Curse the gods, scream and shout.

Stark realization that leaves no doubt.

Finally lost that which you didn’t want to live without.

Come With Me

Come with me my darling

There are such sights to show you

Dancing under the Autumn moon

Embrace the feeling of forever falling

Feel the beating of my heart

Deep within your chest

My partner, the one who knows me best 

Only person with whom I want each day to start

Let me know all the demons you face

Stand by you during the good times and bad

Laugh with you and hold you tight when you are sad

During the darkest nights, us is the safest place

Hold my hand, year after year

Growing ever closer as time goes by

Blessed to have you by my side

Come with me into our forever my dear

Turning Back

One more walkthrough and I’ll be done

My bags have all been packed

Never could have known what would come

Hitting the road and never going to turn back

 New adventures on my own

Starting over is never an easy thing

But being with you, I’ve always been alone

Looking forward to what tomorrow will bring

Gave you my all and along the way lost me

Can’t describe how much pain I’ve felt

No regrets it was in us I believed

But it’s time to find myself.

Waking up from the nightmare that was made

Don’t look, wont know where I’m at

Maybe one day you’ll change how you behave

Don’t care because I’m  never turning back.

Running Through My Mind

Running through the forest in my mind. Caught up in a thicket of sadness. Chased by demons of my own making. Keep on searching, not knowing what I’ll find. Try to never look back, the pieces of a shattered heart under foot. Endlessly praying for a helping hand. Memories start to fade to black. Take a break but not giving up. Face of a stranger is all thats left. Eating the soul that no longer cares. Further strayed from forgotten love.

Dont Blink

Over in a moment 

Thats what I was told

Find the things you love

And onto them, tightly hold

Life can be here today

And gone the next

Don’t leave this world

Full of regret

Enjoy all of life

Before it’s gone

None of us know

Just how long

Take the chances given

They disappear faster than you think

Love fiercely, live fully

And just don’t blink

Nothing To Give

I’ve nothing I can give.

Only lived the life I’ve lived.

Some regrets and many scars,

I still carry upon my heart.

I am a man of my word.

Those I love, I hope they heard,

And felt in my actions so they deeply know.

My love remains, long after I go.

The Winter King

Come again

The Winter King

Waking from

Restless sleep

Journey now

On weary feet

Traveling evermore 

The lonely streets

Bringing a chill

To all he meets 

Alone he wanders

The Winter King

I Don’t Belong Here

I don’t belong here

This isn’t the way it was supposed to be

Hiding in my own darkness 

These are the secrets that we keep

Something’s wrong with me.

Light the match and burn it to the ground.

Homeless vagabond to the end.

What’s lost cannot be found.

Feeling used up

So screwed up

And I only have myself to blame

I’m too messed up

To ever stand up

Tomorrow’s just another start of the same

Can’t come back again

My mind’s filled with uncertainty 

A broken soul adrift in the night

Too far gone to ever believe 

Still waiting out of sight

Internalize every word you say

Nightmares of feeling alive

Hope buried in a shallow grave

Feeling used up

So screwed up

And I only have myself to blame

I’m too messed up

To ever stand up

Tomorrow’s just another start of the same

Stitched up from the inside

Feel a change drawing near

Sun rises on a new chance

I don’t belong here

Deceit

What a fragile web they painstakingly weave.

Tangling of love, hate, fear and deceit.

Twisting your emotions a little each day.

Until you feel you can or should never escape.

You are stronger than they will ever know.

With effort and time your strength can grow.

Inside of you is the power to illuminate.

It’s you, not them, that controls your fate.

Something About The Salt Air

Hear the waves crashing on the shore

Hope is being present a little more

All the pain and sorrow I try to hide

Gets pulled away with the changing of the tides

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Heart is scared but it’s not dead

Sometimes the demons still mess with my head

But the sounds of the surf fill my ears

Soothing the damage and the fear

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Steel drums playing on the street

Warm sand underneath my feet

Believing is easier chased with rum

Each day farther from where I was from

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Torn

Torn between what is and what could be.

Is it real or only a wishful fantasy.

There is only one way to ever know.

Take a step forward and just let go.

Self Made Sociopath

Delusions of perfected normality.

Self righteous words twisted on a whim.

Saying all the right things.

Then turn the knife when the tears begin.

The prettiest smile hides the devils eyes.

Tell your story for all to believe.

Inflated ego held in a hollow heart.

Change the dialog to suit your needs.

Always in control of the world around.

The subtle infliction will never cease.

Blame everyone for what you did yourself .

Break those closest to feed the beast.

Crocodile tears trying to get what you want.

One day the bridges will all be ash.

Alone, left to lament in your own filth.

The final act of a self made sociopath.

Dreamwalker

Please take my breath away.

Say all of the things I’m unable to say.

Release the demons in my mind,

And shatter the illusion of being fine.

Revelations as to why I stay,

Until last heartstrings begins to fray.

Breaking all of the ties that bind,

To the brutal truth I am no longer blind

Twinkling starlight turned to grey.

I will no longer be the dreamwalkers prey.

Messages Never Sent

Replaying all the memories 

we never got to make

Regretting all the words

I never got to say

Nightmares wont let me forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Watching the horror

As the world burns down

Eating the ashes

Of a moment never found

Nightmares wont let me  forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Tangled together 

In delusional delight 

Irrefutable will of fate

Myself is the only one left to fight

Nightmares wont let us forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Candles

Flame extinguished by the October wind.

The weight of absence is felt again.

Memories of another time creep in.

Tears well up as sorrow begins .

Flickering light of life is gone too fast.

Taking with it simple joy, never meant to last.

Into the abyss, the future does crash.

Leaving only the echoes of a long lost past.