NTS3

Note to self: Saying “I love you” is easy, living it each day is the proof.

NTS1

Note to self: All the doubt in your head is bullshit, you know what you want and what to do to get it. 

NTS2

Note to Self: Stop making excuses and justifications..start taking action.

Same

 Looking at you here, now, with eyes aflame.

The feelings hit me and a million things I want to say flood my mind.

Try to explain how much you mean to me,

that you're a treasure I could have never hoped to find.

How your smile brightens each day,

and laughter sounds like divinities sign.

The fact I have never seen myself grow old with anyone,

but I can feel something deeper than our souls entwined.

Before I can even utter a word, you touch my cheek and simply whisper,

same.

FITN #8

When the emptiness overwhelms your heart.

Remember, you may be the light in someone else's  dark.

FITN #7

One of the purest forms of love is being present in each moment together.

FITN #6

 Maybe this life is all you have ever known,

but it is not all you have ever dreamed.

Miles

I am a thousand miles from nowhere

And nothing's all I see.

I don’t know where I’m going

But at least I found me.

 

All the miles traveled,

I always walked alone.

Since the day I lost you

and had to relearn all I had known.

 

Time waits for no one

And I must be moving on

I will take the memories with me

Bury them in my soul so your never really gone

 

Put one foot in front of the other

Hide the pain behind a smile 

Look forward to nightfall

Maybe I will rest after the next mile.

 

I am a thousand miles from nowhere

And nothings all I see

I don’t know where I’m going

But at least I found me

Morning

The weight of my mind pushes against my chest

arms won’t move

Darkness envelopes with a gentle caress

Try to open my eyes but the message doesn’t send

Legs are still

Maybe if I just could get my will to bend

Why even go on with the fight

Arms twitching

I  can’t stay here, even if it feels right

Legs kicking

I feel air rushing in as I push myself to the surface

Finally sit up

I am awake from another restless night and maybe today will find a purpose

HeartString

I have been holding on by a heartstring.

Dreaming and praying for life to begin.

Wake each day hoping peace it will bring.

Laying down each night unrealized again.

 

I watch as it frays a little more.

Maybe it’s just karma for all my sin.

Wonder if I should have opened another door.

But in the end, I know I would choose this time and again.

 

Tribulations and patience payoff when it’s said and done.

Each day I feel something deeper occurring.

The connection is so powerful it cannot be outrun.

Forged in the fire of eternity it can never be broken, my heartstring.

FITN #3

 For all she has been through,

More than "good enough" is due.

SK

 I shutter when I feel the memory of your kiss on my soul.

Soar

 

The Human spirit is an indomitable thing.

With it you can walk through the fires of Hell

Or soar to where the angels sing.

#4

The deepest part of my soul doth profess.

My past sins to her I confess.

Knowing all the evil I have done.

With her broken halo she did not run.

In her own pain she had stayed.

Until she happened on me that day.

Maybe this it was all meant to be.

Written long ago by some great divinity.

Or maybe this was chance you say.

Random coincidence that like everything will decay.

Either way, by her side I will always stand.

Accept her completely and work each day to be a deserving man.

#3

I want to know the parts of you hidden in shadows.

Whisper the secrets you locked away long ago; afraid no one would understand.

Let me see not only what you show the world but the deepest recesses of your heart. Allow me to meet your demons so you can understand that all of you is what I want.

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The Road

 Long ago before I was old.

I started down a winding road.

Was not paved in the normal means.

Under my feet were broken dreams.

The bumps were many as I trod along

And while not easy, somehow, I knew its where I belong.

Vines crawled out from the sides

And from their truth I could not hide.

Wrapping tight around my throat,

Trying to cut off any feeling of hope.

Breaking free from their grasp

and finding a tree under which I could rest.

Shutting my eyes so I could sleep.

Dreams of choices I have made and hurt so deep.

When I awake with a start,

The pain pours out from my heart

Onto the road the dreams do go,

Extending ever longer my winding road.

One day soon the road will end

And I will be home with my best friend.

Spark

The smallest of embers is all it will take.

Starting without warning or declaration.

Just a small wisp of smoke in the depth of your heart.

Then, just like that, it takes hold and an inferno your spirit can start.

L

Love is not like the in movies, it is much more.

Love is being present in each moment together.

Love is heart strands woven together jointly into a tapestry of life.

Love is patience and together opening the door.

Love is learning and together making life better.

Love is being best friends, even during strife.

Love is laughter, tears, the holding of a hand.

Love is brutal openness and extreme vulnerability. 

Love is holding the weight when the other cant.

Love is a smile and knowing with them you can.

Love is realizing they are what you want in reality.

Love is knowing this is a rock, the rest has been sand.

She & He

She never thought of herself as strong.

She never thought she would figure it out.

She thought herself weak.

She thought herself undeserving.

She thought she would once again make a mistake.

She thought she could not hear her instincts.

She thought she must be wrong.

She thought all she had known was all there was.

She never thought she could be loved without doubt.

She never thought she would feel like she belonged.

 

He never thought of her less than amazing.

He never thought of her less than fierce.

He thought her spirit was something to behold. 

He thought her the most intelligent person known.

He thought she was worth all the faith he had.

He thought her a true partner to grow with.

He thought he again believes in something more.

He thought this is more than he could have dreamed.

He never thought of life without his best friend.

He never thought of her more than every minute.

Voices

The monsters were never under our bed

They are the shadows of doubt in our head

Twisted vines of fear choking us from rational thought

Two million spiders and in their web, we are caught

Try but we can’t find footing in the sinking sand

Too tired to go on we let go, give up again

Thinking the darkness will swallow us whole

Till we realize we should just listen to our soul

Turning of the Wheel

The wheel of life continues to turn,

recalling all the lessons learned.

The echoes of what once were going to be,

are snuffed like a candle and fade from memory.

The smiles and laughter now replaced with silence,

a void in their place from that day hence.

Struggle against this with all your might,

change is inevitable and you will lose the fight.

Embrace each day just as the last,

you will not relive mistakes from the past.

Your spirit is stronger that you will ever know,

take the reins and continue to grow.

Dog days of Summer

This time of year when the nights grow long 

 and days become cold. 

Feel the demons harbored in our minds and hear the whispers of change upon the wind.

Yet the sun rises each morn to chase away the darkness of old.

To allow us to make the choices that lead to our deepest happiness in the end.