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 Another night alone crying in a ball on the floor. Screaming into the dead of night hoping you can hear me in your heart. I don’t know what I did so wrong to deserve this. Darkness claws at my brain, tempting me to not open my eyes, no one cares anyway. No one to turn to as my world burns, all lies in the end. I am alone, and in the emptiness that once was my soul, I feel the last remnants of me. 

Another day spent with a fake smile carved on my face, just what they need. Show up, toe the line, get it all done. Small banter with the specters while fighting back the demon inside. Choking on every word, gnashing blood stained teeth trying to catch a single breath. No one knows whats in the decayed mind of the forgotten ones. Serve your purpose and clock out, there is nothing left to see.

Never good enough, never bad enough. Caught in this limbo of oblivion, drowning in the abyss. Somehow always trying to be what would have been needed, wanting to be chosen but falling short each time. Hoping not for love any longer but to become invisible, to simply be unmade.Unsure what to do, so swallow the last ruminants of self worth and cease to feel. Worthless pile of flesh and bone, a pack mule forever to be.