Time

Time is a funny thing.

We always want more of it,

Yet never pay attention to where it goes.

Until something happens,

Then it’s more, we want our prays to bring.

The aftermath brings a renewed vow.

Stop taking each moment as if it will last.

Share that which we keep hidden in our hearts.

Then the comfortable complacency returns,

And we pronounce, the time isn’t right now.

Tomorrow will be when change begins.

We always have that, right?

Have just a little more to ponder.

Afraid to fail we simply justify inaction.

What if though, today is the end.

Tell Yourself

Go ahead, tell yourself another white lie.

Believing even in the tears you cry.

Find every reason you can never try.

All is good enough, everything is fine.

When the time comes, and chances run out.

Curse the gods, scream and shout.

Stark realization that leaves no doubt.

Finally lost that which you didn’t want to live without.

Come With Me

Come with me my darling

There are such sights to show you

Dancing under the Autumn moon

Embrace the feeling of forever falling

Feel the beating of my heart

Deep within your chest

My partner, the one who knows me best 

Only person with whom I want each day to start

Let me know all the demons you face

Stand by you during the good times and bad

Laugh with you and hold you tight when you are sad

During the darkest nights, us is the safest place

Hold my hand, year after year

Growing ever closer as time goes by

Blessed to have you by my side

Come with me into our forever my dear

Turning Back

One more walkthrough and I’ll be done

My bags have all been packed

Never could have known what would come

Hitting the road and never going to turn back

 New adventures on my own

Starting over is never an easy thing

But being with you, I’ve always been alone

Looking forward to what tomorrow will bring

Gave you my all and along the way lost me

Can’t describe how much pain I’ve felt

No regrets it was in us I believed

But it’s time to find myself.

Waking up from the nightmare that was made

Don’t look, wont know where I’m at

Maybe one day you’ll change how you behave

Don’t care because I’m  never turning back.

Running Through My Mind

Running through the forest in my mind. Caught up in a thicket of sadness. Chased by demons of my own making. Keep on searching, not knowing what I’ll find. Try to never look back, the pieces of a shattered heart under foot. Endlessly praying for a helping hand. Memories start to fade to black. Take a break but not giving up. Face of a stranger is all thats left. Eating the soul that no longer cares. Further strayed from forgotten love.

Dont Blink

Over in a moment 

Thats what I was told

Find the things you love

And onto them, tightly hold

Life can be here today

And gone the next

Don’t leave this world

Full of regret

Enjoy all of life

Before it’s gone

None of us know

Just how long

Take the chances given

They disappear faster than you think

Love fiercely, live fully

And just don’t blink

Nothing To Give

I’ve nothing I can give.

Only lived the life I’ve lived.

Some regrets and many scars,

I still carry upon my heart.

I am a man of my word.

Those I love, I hope they heard,

And felt in my actions so they deeply know.

My love remains, long after I go.

The Winter King

Come again

The Winter King

Waking from

Restless sleep

Journey now

On weary feet

Traveling evermore 

The lonely streets

Bringing a chill

To all he meets 

Alone he wanders

The Winter King

I Don’t Belong Here

I don’t belong here

This isn’t the way it was supposed to be

Hiding in my own darkness 

These are the secrets that we keep

Something’s wrong with me.

Light the match and burn it to the ground.

Homeless vagabond to the end.

What’s lost cannot be found.

Feeling used up

So screwed up

And I only have myself to blame

I’m too messed up

To ever stand up

Tomorrow’s just another start of the same

Can’t come back again

My mind’s filled with uncertainty 

A broken soul adrift in the night

Too far gone to ever believe 

Still waiting out of sight

Internalize every word you say

Nightmares of feeling alive

Hope buried in a shallow grave

Feeling used up

So screwed up

And I only have myself to blame

I’m too messed up

To ever stand up

Tomorrow’s just another start of the same

Stitched up from the inside

Feel a change drawing near

Sun rises on a new chance

I don’t belong here

Deceit

What a fragile web they painstakingly weave.

Tangling of love, hate, fear and deceit.

Twisting your emotions a little each day.

Until you feel you can or should never escape.

You are stronger than they will ever know.

With effort and time your strength can grow.

Inside of you is the power to illuminate.

It’s you, not them, that controls your fate.

Something About The Salt Air

Hear the waves crashing on the shore

Hope is being present a little more

All the pain and sorrow I try to hide

Gets pulled away with the changing of the tides

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Heart is scared but it’s not dead

Sometimes the demons still mess with my head

But the sounds of the surf fill my ears

Soothing the damage and the fear

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Steel drums playing on the street

Warm sand underneath my feet

Believing is easier chased with rum

Each day farther from where I was from

There’s something about the salt air

Blows away memories of when you were here

Sun kissed skin and a stiff drink in my  glass

Forgetting all the reasons for ever looking back

Torn

Torn between what is and what could be.

Is it real or only a wishful fantasy.

There is only one way to ever know.

Take a step forward and just let go.

Self Made Sociopath

Delusions of perfected normality.

Self righteous words twisted on a whim.

Saying all the right things.

Then turn the knife when the tears begin.

The prettiest smile hides the devils eyes.

Tell your story for all to believe.

Inflated ego held in a hollow heart.

Change the dialog to suit your needs.

Always in control of the world around.

The subtle infliction will never cease.

Blame everyone for what you did yourself .

Break those closest to feed the beast.

Crocodile tears trying to get what you want.

One day the bridges will all be ash.

Alone, left to lament in your own filth.

The final act of a self made sociopath.

Dreamwalker

Please take my breath away.

Say all of the things I’m unable to say.

Release the demons in my mind,

And shatter the illusion of being fine.

Revelations as to why I stay,

Until last heartstrings begins to fray.

Breaking all of the ties that bind,

To the brutal truth I am no longer blind

Twinkling starlight turned to grey.

I will no longer be the dreamwalkers prey.

Messages Never Sent

Replaying all the memories 

we never got to make

Regretting all the words

I never got to say

Nightmares wont let me forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Watching the horror

As the world burns down

Eating the ashes

Of a moment never found

Nightmares wont let me  forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Tangled together 

In delusional delight 

Irrefutable will of fate

Myself is the only one left to fight

Nightmares wont let us forget

Constant chaos of familiar embrace

Beautifully broken angelic wings 

Messages to heaven that were never sent

Candles

Flame extinguished by the October wind.

The weight of absence is felt again.

Memories of another time creep in.

Tears well up as sorrow begins .

Flickering light of life is gone too fast.

Taking with it simple joy, never meant to last.

Into the abyss, the future does crash.

Leaving only the echoes of a long lost past.

Viper

Viper

Alluring words dance upon the vipers tongue.

Each one more seductive than the last.

Breath catches from its hypnotic gaze.

Into yourself , you again crash.

Forget the lessons learned and relive the past.

Eat the apple and drink the wine.

Rest your head upon mothers breast.

Shut your eyes, you’ll be fine.

End of all things happens in time.

Succumb to the poison stealing precious life.

Defiled divinity, pieces left upon the floor.

Sever the remnants with a dull knife.

Take My Hand

Come with me and take my hand.

Walk with me through a dark wonderland .

Go past the fields of forgotten dreams.

Remember, nothing here is as it seems.

That’s the forest of misplaced souls.

Just withered specters of a time long ago.

Make our way along the shore for a little while.

This is the lake where one can drown their final desire.

Leave you now here as I found you there.

Soon you will realize that no one cares.

Wasted Time

A lifetime personified by lackadaisical haste.

Never caring if I am actually heading somewhere.

Behind this smile is a soul that no longer cares.

Expectations unrealized, leave an acrid taste.

Hope put into all the wrong things.

Stardust drifting in the void of the unknown.

Searching evermore for an elusive home.

Dying butterfly with tattered wings.

Coming now to eternities end.

Toast to the memories that never were made.

One last kiss then to black it will fade.

Devils weep as the flame rises again.

One Teardrop

One teardrop is all that remains

of what I thought I knew.

Time wasted wishing is all I’ve known how to do.

Devouring devotion, living in the shadow of shame.

One teardrop muted, blind, and deaf.

Acrimony blowing on the wind.

Demons of the past dancing on the ashes again.

One teardrop is all the time that’s  left.

Playing Pretend

So enchanting, playing pretend.

Figment you thought was a friend.

Time arrives when you are in need.

They stand back and watch you bleed.

You would never ask for their help, do it yourself.

Hoping for deliverance from self made hell.

Alone you must stand, against it all.

Brick by brick you build your walls.

Never to trust or be let down again

By the figment you pretended was a friend.

Love Is(‘nt)

Love is not a fleeting moment in time.

Just some good enough to get by.

Love is messy, breathtaking, raw and kind,

It’s at the forefront of the heart, soul and mind.

Love leaves you wanting it so much more,

Not knowing if you’ve ever really lived before.

Has you take steps,  knowing what you’re fighting for.

Love isn’t just a descriptor, it’s an action word.